How i got bored in New Eden and some nullibear whinning

I was about to write some meaningful bloggie, but to be honest, Im running out of ideas. Its not like i live in the boring part of space, we have deployment, some random people are roaming through my home region all the time, i can take interceptor or nullified t3 and visit out fellaz in BOT space. Yet, i prefer to sit in station all the time and occasionally do some ratting.
And so i have to ask myself, why am i even playing this game? Sure i join for fleets and its goddamn good feeling, being one of 200 guys in fleet and listening to your commander. I really enjoy this, hm, lets call it brotherhood, with other pilots, not just in EVE though, Arma brings me the same feeling, while crawling to new position with my squad.
Yet, those fleets does not happen so often, at least it does not work like "log in, join fleet, make pew, log out," nope, its much more complicated. Log in, make isk, log out. Few moments later,  ping comes and although you should be sleeping, you log in again, join a fleet, buy some ship or have it from last time, undock, get to titan, wait. Sometimes, nothing happens and you just dock up, frustrated and sleep deprived. Sometimes, you actually get to fight, enjoy yourself for some time, then fly home, dock up and go to work, because its morning already.

You see, the main problem in EVE is that playing eve is not instant fun like other games. You actually have to commit crazy amount of time to get some fun, even in faction warfare, flying around and finding a "gudfight." The traveling itself was absolutely insane back in the ancient times i started playing this game. We lived deep in Great Wildlands, dont ask why, we had to ship everything down there in transport ships or just fly ratting and pvp ships manually. It was painful, not entertaining and it took insane amount of time to get something there. Not even talking about the urge to quit game after getting popped in gatecamp 4 times in a row.
The jump bridges made the travel much easier for us, therefore getting to actual fun was faster and we did not have to spend countless hours travelling through gates. Also, jump bridges brought huge tactical advantage to locals.
For us, bittervets, the capital ships, especially carriers meant deliverance from all the stupid traveling and jumping around. We just stuffed our carriers with ships we wanted, moved them to our staging system in few minutes and waited for ping to happen. Thanks to fatass Greyscale, not anymore.

To me, EVE has probably become the subscribe based reddit. I paid for 6 months of gametime recently, and now, i regret this decision. Well, what can i do, when CCP doesnt return money even when they completely changed the game, so its not longer the thing i paid for.
Whatever, its a Island thing.
TEAAAARS!
ps. i realize this is seriously shitty piece, but whatever, its Nadezda`s thing